RESERVE
One in Reserve relates through being acutely aware of your feelings and the energy fueling them, but selective of what emotions you choose to release, share or use in your relationships, goals or experiences.
You grow intimacy through processing it gradually, in layers/sips at a time, rather than diving in all at once.
And it’s important for you to have the whole picture, the history or “the point” behind an experience- to see that there’s meaning to be found in pursuing something.
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NEGATIVE SPECTRUM
-Inhibition ensues when you try to ignore, reject or repress emotions that overwhelm+exhaust you, while protecting emotional states that are fueling you from running out.
This is what happens when your capacity to manage emotions is depleted- so you either become so provoked by feeling too much that you need to control, contain and resist feelings. Or you can't see or anticipate any meaning from pursuing a relationship or experience- so you cope with internal struggles & feel so little.
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You begin to function on "automatic pilot" in your interactions, as you inhibit your output to the point of near-invisibility- insidiously cutting off all inspirations & impulses that are too much to handle.
SLIDING
When you fall into -Inhibition, you begin to -Identify with the potential of something not yet fulfilled, losing yourself in your attachments, cravings, idealizations, fears and experiences.
To move into +Restraint, you must +Self-Actualize, bringing out the potential you wish for in your relationship, experience or pursuit by BEING that and CREATING this new sense of meaning in your life.
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You can also work on allowing all facets of your relationship/experience to feel intimately involved in your pursuit of meaning & be seen+understood with +Clarity- rather than only -Survey those parts and let them "pass by" in ways that inhibit, repress and reject your sense of inspiration to feel closer.
POSITIVE SPECTRUM
A shift into +Restraint means you find strength in building up and reserving your emotions to release, share or use them when it’s more efficient, relevant or necessary to.
In doing so, you don't overwhelm yourself or anyone else with so much feeling you/they struggle to manage- but can find+share what matters most in any experience or relationship with elegance and ease.
You control and choose how you experience & manage your feelings and inspirations now- and so you're much more aware of what's most important to share as inspiration for yourself or another to draw from.
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When something feels meaningful & inspiring then, you are able to build upon that meaning incrementally- uncovering more inspiration bit by bit as you unfold your sense of intimacy and achievement.
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ATTRACTION & WOUNDING
Reserve is most attractive to others for being able to draw out a focus on parts of one's soul (sub-personalities, memories, past life connections etc.) for exploration/healing.
As Reserve gets to know others through their Centering- it could be said you attract to any Common Ground in the Roots or History of another, relying most on your shared past to identify others.
You can feel most wounded then when you let the past eat away at you, or carry burdens and baggage from it that constantly strip away the point, meaning and significance of your experiences/relationships now.
So suddenly (or not so suddenly), you unintentionally bury the gifts & potential of the present under loaded feelings of resentment, regret, apathy, struggle, obligation etc.
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To heal, it helps to Deal with the Past- to deal with all the things you've ignored, rejected, denied, repeated, embellished, projected, inherited etc.- and realize that it's the power of your choices in this present moment, right now, that build, develop, heal, grow and nurture the meaning of both the past and future.
You may not be able to change the past, but you can change your perspective of it- and therefore that cascades through you so that you're no longer reacting from it, but responding to it.